Laugh. It really is the only thing you can do. When things don’t go as planned, turn out how you expected, end up where you thought they should… all anyone can really do is laugh. Find the comical beauty in all life’s unexpected punches to the stomach. A wonderful poet once wrote that getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs just how much they like the taste of air. I know this to be true. Again and again life throws its right hook straight to the gut. Gasp.
Confusion. Exhaustion. Deflation.
All of these feelings come boiling to the surface and start to overshadow the other feelings you have, the better feelings.
Excitement. Optimism. Acceptance.
Recently, I was let go from my job. For those of you who know me, know how hard I worked for this job, how much I loved this job, and how surprised I was to loose this job. Now, it was probably the best let-go a person could ask for. It was everything to do with finances and nothing to do with my work ethic but still, the whole getting the wind knocked out of you feeling emerged full force. The confusion, exhaustion and deflation still came to the surface. I am back standing at a crossroads in life with no clue what direction to go in.
Breath. Breath deep. Breath slow. Breath with purpose.
Suddenly the good feelings that were overshadowed slowly make their way to the surface. Excitement for the possibilities of what’s next for my future. Optimism that life really does have a way of working itself out. Acceptance of the fact that I have no control over what happens to me, only how I react.
My life definitely isn’t going as I planned but honestly, thank god. I have had so much joy and love come out of the worst possible situations. The last job I got let-go from (similar situation, being a marketer has it’s challenges) I ended up jumping into a big red van and traveling the entire country. I came back, started serving at a waffle house around the corner from my house where I met my now very best friend here in Denver. This waffle house happened to be across the street from a tattoo shop, which I walked into and met my now boyfriend and absolute love of my life. He gave me the confidence and support I needed to go after a writing job that brought me more joy than I ever thought possible - where I helped raise over 1 million dollars towards local Denver nonprofits.
What is next? Where will life take me now? Who will life give me now? What lesson will life teach me now?
With all of my being, I can’t tell you enough how happy I am I was let go from that first job, and how scary it is to be sitting at a crossroad, again, and how hopeful I am that this universe knows just what to do with me next. So, I just laugh.
Oh, universe… I like you.